I thought I would take some minutes off this terribly busy time to let you know how am I doing and what’s going on in my life lately.
Actually, after I wrote this post, I wasn’t sure I would really publish it, because this is something I haven’t done before on the blog. I shared with you lot of things, my passion for food and creating new recipes, for traveling and nature, for my darling husband and family in general, but I haven’t told you much about me. Anyways, I eventually thought there’s nothing wrong in what I’m about to say, and that this might even help someone, who is unsure of what to do in their life.
Where to start? Well, surely from the fact that I am about to finish this Finnish language and culture course I have been having for the last 13 months (with only two weeks of holiday!). I have mixed feelings about this. It has surely been a great time, I met amazing people that gave me a lot under many aspects. And I learned Finnish! I mean, of course I am not a pro, but I can speak it, I am able to manage quite well in daily matters and even I have some friends with whom I would speak only in Finnish! So, I’m pretty content on how I am getting along with this terrible but wonderful language at the same time. Who knows! Maybe in the future I could share with you something more about it (would you be interested in it? Leave a comment if you are!).
Still, I am also quite relieved. This course took A LOT of my time. It would be full time, so it really left me little time for the rest. And that’s something I didn’t like. I knew it already before, but now I definitely know it for sure, that this kind of life is not for me. I have been suffering for panic attacks since many years now, and a busy life, made of a tight schedule all the time, is something I cannot afford. My energy would all go to survive to the work or school day so, when that would be over, I wouldn’t have anymore left for what really counts: being with family, with friends. What I want to give to the people I love is quality time and, in order to do that, I need to live a life in which I can breath. The society presses individuals to become something, to make a successful career, to be better than others. It imposes standards, that I don’t want to live by. I don’t care about competitiveness, not anymore. Knowing myself, knowing my limits and, what’s most important, accepting them, is something I want to work on more from now on. Because it’s only by doing that that I can really give my best to the people I love.
I am already having plans on what to do after I’ll be done with all the final exams, but you’ll have to stay tuned if you’d like to know more about them.
Have a wonderful weekend friends!